Diarogue Finale 7/7: Wisdom, Rogue

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Episode #7 of The Rogue Dialogues: Inner Healing for Leadership

Concluding Carnus, War

The scene is a wide-open grassy field.
Two women enter from opposite sides, running towards each other.
One is older than the hills, but still a picture of perfect health.
The other is younger, having just now reached her full maturity.

Before they can embrace, the younger one trips and falls.
She lies prone, shaking and pounding the ground in her grief.

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Diarogue 5/7: Seer, Wisdom

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Episode #5 of The Rogue Dialogues: Inner Healing for Leadership

Continued from Adept, Wisdom

A serious-looking, raven-haired young woman with a sable cloak and green eyes enters the room.

Seer: Thena? My lady Thena, art thou here?

Thena: [entering] Rogue, my dear child, how you have grown! Who are you today?

S. I hast followed thy advice and become a Seer. My life is devoted to seeing others as they are, not as I wish them to be. I can even see the invisible kingdom alongside the kingdoms of man.

T. Wonderful! I am so proud of you. But why did you say this was my advice?

S. For sooth, that is the reason I sought thee out, for fear I hath misunderstood thy intent when last we met.

T. What did you think I meant?

S. I was an Adept strong in battle, yet thou shewed me fretful and vulnerable as ever I lost sight of my surroundings, or thee. I took this as a challenge to improve my vision.

T. That challenge was well-taken, dear child. But are you concerned you may have taken it too far?

S. Yea, verily. For I am now so besotten with every little detail, I know not whence to act. I see all sides of a conflict, and the Justice and Pain behind each, so that my heart is torn every which way and darest not choose sides.

“I see all sides of a conflict, and the Justice and Pain behind each, so that my heart is torn every which way and darest not choose sides.”

Seer

T. Gentle Seer, I honor the pain you carry. While it was not my intent to place this great burden upon a you, yet I am so proud you took the narrow path until its bitter end.

S. But what good hath I done? Hast I not wasteth my life, if all I do is see and not act?

T. Seer, you surprise me! Do you truly not see the great power of seeing?

S. Mistress, thou justly shamest me. I took such great pride in my vision that I thought I hath seen it all. Please forgive me.

T. Seer, I see your humility and honor you for it. I see the pure hunger that drove you to discipline your mind and body; and also the vanity and insecurity that both spurred you on and crippled you.

“I see the pure hunger that drove you to discipline your mind and body; and also the vanity and insecurity that both spurred you on and crippled you.”

Thena, Goddess of Wisdom

T. I see your childlike curiosity, as well as your selfish desire for superior knowledge. Your longing to help, and your need for control. Your deep compassion — and subtle judging. Know that I see you, with all your glory and all your flaws, and love you all the more for both of them.

“Know that I see you, with all your glory and all your flaws, and love you all the more for both of them.”

Thena, Goddess of Wisdom

Seer, overcome, kneels down and weeps. Thena reaches down and gently strokes her hair.

T. Seer, the power of seeing is the second of God’s Great Acts. The first is to Beget. The second is to Behold. No life is wasted even if devoted to just one of these.

Seer rises. Thena hugs her fiercely, then holds her at arms length.

S. Mother, what shadow of trouble so darkens thy brow?

T. O, daughter!

Thena collapses. Seer kneels beside her.

S. Mother, what illness hath befallen thee?

T. No illness, child. But darkness. A darkness woven into my bones before the foundation of this world.

S. Is there no cure? Thou has taught me to seek so far, surely somewhere I mayest find thy succor?

T. No… but yes. Even Wisdom has its limits, child. Your instinct was right. To be a Seer is a great and agonizing call. But the one that comes after is much more of both. And that step… I cannot take with you.

S. No! Dearest mother, thou hast always been my sweetest friend. Let me abide with thee still, even if I must die with thee.

T. O my darling Rogue, how tempted I am to spare you the bitter cup that awaits. But such decisions are not for me to make. I am not worthy to choose the time and place of my own death, much less yours.

Thena seems to have aged a century. She lies back on the ground.

T. Come close to me, child. There is but one path left, if you would save my life and fulfill your destiny.

Seer grips Thena’s suddenly frail hand with two of hers. She lowers her ears to Thena’s lips.

T. [inaudible]

Seer screams and jumps to her feet.

S. No! No, please. No, not that! Never!!

Weeping and wailing, Seer runs off into the darkness.
While Wisdom lays dying in the light.

Continued in Diarogue 6/7: Carnus, War

Dream: Threeway Trash Thrash

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I am in China working for Caltech
Like I did in the early 1990s
[at the Beijing Electron Positron Collider that built the first Internet link there]

I think I am still a student
But it feels like modern times

We are working in some major industrial plant
Or perhaps a city
Maybe even a Muniversity [hypothetical Learning City]

I was sent there to help our professor
Who oversees their sanitation systems

He has done some amazing work
He added, like, a second trash dropoff line
Inside an existing building
Nearly doubling throughput
At virtually no cost

But he hasn’t been communicating
The top brass is worried
It may be time to pull him back

He never wanted this job
But now he seems to be clinging to power
It doesn’t make any sense

So I really have three assignments:

  1. On the surface, I am there to help him
  2. My bosses primarily just want to know what the heck is going on
  3. And I am wondering if I should replace him

He has been avoiding me for days
Finally I manage to corner him
On his way to the cafeteria

Another person seems to have had the same Idea
A Chinese woman
Probably a local
Her bosses probably have similar concerns
I wonder if she has the same triple assignment

We buttonhole the professor
Pleading with him to let us help him

He’s unfailingly polite
But strangely evasive

I finally realize
He is at war with himself

At one level
He is surprised to discover
He loves this job
The chance to make a concrete difference
The power and authority
Living abroad, free from distractions

At another level
He hates himself for getting sucked in
He is supposed to be a science professor
Not a sanitation executive
He is neglecting his research
And graduate students
Not to mention his family!

Yet he somehow got addicted to this crap job
During what was supposed to be
A short term assignment
Of just a few months

I finally ask him point blank
“Don’t you want to get back to your research?”

We are in the enormous cafeteria now
He is so flustered
He throws scalding hot coffee
All over me

It is probably an accident
But he and I both know
It doesn’t look good

I could easily spin it
As him physically assaulting me
And have him called back

I don’t want to do that
I just want to understand
What the heck is going on
What he truly wants
How I can help

Maybe
He finally
Does too


Please pray for me
Our tiny little church
is going through a massive transition
The risks and opportunity
are great

God seems to be opening
long-closed doors
for me to speak into leadership

The spiritual warfare is intense
So pray carefully
Thank you

TC-1d2: Defining Discipleship

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Thesis Club Submission to Jeff Hubing

Draft 2 (previous version)

Big Idea

Making Disciples of Jesus
is about spreading His Kingdom
by manifesting the Fruit of the Spirit
for others to enjoy
via the deliberate practice of submitting every thought, emotion, and reaction
to Christ

Target Audience

Anyone who wants to become a disciple of Jesus

Challenge Statement

Our current understanding of discipleship is primarily built around human role models: e.g., Pharisees, Philosophers, Pietists.

While those have great value, they fall far short of the abundant life promised by Jesus (John 10:10). Too often they can end up strengthening our Self, rather than denying it (Mark 8:34)

Proposed Solution

  1. God’s purpose is to love us into becoming like Jesus (Romans 8:28-29)
  2. The best measure of our Christ-likeness is how consistently we manifest the Fruit of the Spirit for others to enjoy (Galatians 5:22-23)
  3. This requires a community that helps us graciously recognize when and where we fall short (1 John 1:7)
  4. Only the cross of Christ — through repentance, grieving, and forgiving — can heal the deep wounds that most hinder the flow of His Spirit (tbd)