Radically Happy

So I open the door / And look inside // All I see… / Is blackness

What am I looking for? / Why is it so hard to find? // I look to Jesus. / He points directly at my heart…

But / 
I didn’t see Him / 
Trust Him / 
Recognize Him…

What would it look like if I treated those I consider God’s enemies, the way He treats me? / I very much fear it would mean giving up my self-righteousness, emotional distance, and self-protective confidence in my own judgement…

MIC Check Today’s Most Important Challenge is… Immanuel Approach Memo Continued from 5/13 IAM: Un-Orphaned I am… speechless. The Good NewsJesus asked me to give awayIs me On the newspapersHe gave me to distributeIs my pictureIn full living colorAbove the caption “Local boy gives life to save city”

I am a little sad / 
I have to wait / 
But more excited / 
I finally have something / 
Worth waiting for…

Secretly / 
I rejoice in bad news / 
Because I profit from it…

I try to push them / Back to safety / But that / Just makes them more nervous / And they scatter…

I must enter into His rest
 / Before I can give it to others…

“Do not deprive them / 
Of their glory / 
Do not judge / 
What you don’t understand”

The reality is that / 
In my flesh / 
I would prefer / 
To be foolish / 
Than to look foolish…

We are building a superhighway / Through a ruined wasteland / Of ruined dreams / And broken promises…

I look to My Father. // His face / Is grim / But His eyes / Twinkle / With mischief…

I scream / 
It is too much / 
I cannot bear / 
This kindness…

He pats my hand / 
He comforts me / 
Because my emotional distress / 
Is worse than His physical distress / 
(At least to Him)…

God’s throne room / Is being overrun / By an enemy // Me / I am the enemy…

Wondering if He will make it lighter / Instead / He makes me stronger…

I suddenly realize / This story is not / About finding or rescuing / My Beloved // It is about finding Christ / In the depths of Primal Reality / As my Beloved / And finding myself / As His Beloved…

I begin to sweat / Should I follow the road / Or Jesus? // The wrong choice / Could cost me my soul…