Radically Happy

I take a stand / 
So / 
The darkness threatens / 
To overcome me…

The road to the blight / On My Father’s garden forest / Has become swampy // The more I fight it / The more I get stuck…

Or my enforced fast / 
Emptied me of smallness / 
Until I enlarged…

I wait / 
Without food and water / 
For three days / 
And three nights…

Hungry / To see God’s Kingdom come // Humbled / By my own short-sightedness and self-deception…

But / 
I’m never clear what my role is / 
When not in or near water…

My opponent / 
In the ring / 
Is bigger / 
Stronger / 
Younger / 
Nastier…

Ruining / 
Their ugliness / 
Casting off their impurities…

My flaky heartbread / 
Ignites like tinder / 
And is quickly consumed to ash…

But I cannot take the heat / 
So I cry uncle / 
Until I pull out…

Until it is / 
As hard and dry / 
As my heart…

The boundary between me / 
And my enemies / 
No longer makes sense…

Destroying / Remaking / Becoming / New foundations / For the city / That was His enemy / And mine…

The enemy knife / 
Cuts right through me / 
Shattering their altar / 
Horrifying their priestess…

Though I am alone / 
Unarmored and unarmed / 
The enemy city / 
Is threatened by my very size…

Swollen with the new names / 
Of each reconciled part of me / 
I am an easy target…

The stones thrown at me / 
By my army of alienated parts / 
Pierce my heart / 
Helping it to grow // Helping me to grow…