Happy Fibonacci Day!
First-order pain helps us learn
To keep away from flames that burn
Our bodies we need to preserve
So that on earth we may serve
Continued from Blew Monday
“Good morning, sleepyhead!”
I wake up and look at Jesus, startled.
Me: What time is it? Did I sleep in?
Jesus: Don’t worry about it. I turned off your alarm and got the kids ready for school myself. Your mom will pick them up.
M. Why? Are we going somewhere?
His face suddenly turns sober.
J. Yes. You remember I promised I’d help you understand why I can’t stay here with you all the time?
I nod silently, torn between excitement and dread.
J. Well, today is bring your wife to work day!
I make appreciative noises, like I’m happy about this. Yet I can’t help but notice that His smile doesn’t reach His eyes.Continue reading
An inflated ego’s not bad
When there’s a world to be had
Denying the norm
Is how we form
A Selfness that makes our hearts glad
When suffering under harsh yoke
It’s not enough just to be “woke”
The pain that we feel
Though surely it’s real
Has to do more than provoke
Jesus calls us onto His trial trail
To grow a faith that will not fail
For when we are tested
Our weakness is bested
By joy from the sorrow of His grail
In a world where sufferings out of fashion
Christ calls us to live with compassion
As we train our brain
To not flee from pain
His Kingdom, to our world, will crash in
When God delays dealing with sin
We’re forced to face problems within
His plan for the world
Is slowly unfurled
As dying like Christ we begin
As mortals we dare not believe
Truths that our eyes can’t perceive
How God in His goodness may lead
Us faster through lands where we bleed
We all need to Rock “Bottom Favor”
Though that means we must drink bitter flavor
When we find joy in pain
Our cross becomes gain
And we bear fruit the world will long savor
God sometimes seems under-handed
Our suffering, as if He has planned it
It feels like our pain
Is just for His gain
And we must give what He demanded
If we want Christ to ReNewAll
We must have grace to go through all
The cross and the grave
More sinners to save
Our share in heaven’s accrual
Concluding the story from Sex 206. Loving Father
I am trapped in the Bar of Hell.
Watching my Father guzzle
All the shame, suffering and sin
Of the whole world
With such agonizing joy
That my soul yearns
To join Him
I grab my tiny Cup, full of ruby liquid, and slam it down my throat.
I have tasted all the pleasures of this world, from the sublime heights of philosophy to the sordid depths of passion.
All start out sweet as honey to my mouth, but end up bitter as gall in my stomach.
This… is the reverse.Continue reading
Continued from Sex 205. Loving Death
I have been drowning my sorrows at the Bar of Hell.
Consumed by my own inadequacy and self-loathing.
Even Jesus seems to have abandoned me.
But just when I think I am completely, utterly, eternally alone, I hear a voice.
“Have a drink.”
Me: You?! Here!?
Father: Yes. I AM.
M. I thought Jesus Himself couldn’t stand to be around me.
F. No, He couldn’t sit there doing nothing. So He cleared the room so I could come.
I am throughly bewildered.
The place still looks like Hell.
I still feel like Hell.
But my Father…
He looks like He owns the place.
And even more shocking… like He’s happy to see me!
M. Um, uh, I, er, wasn’t exactly expecting to see You here. Sorry, to, ah, drag You down here.
F. Not at all! In fact, this is one of My favorite places to meet My kids.
M. Say what?!
F. What do you think I want most?
M. Um, a relationship with Your kids?
F. Close enough. And what do you think is the greatest barrier to that?
This answer I knew.
M. Sin! Sex. Drunkeness. Orgies. Worldly indulgence. Carnal attitudes.
F. Oh sure, those things grieve my heart, because they can corrode your spirit. But frankly, they often do as much good as harm.
M. Come again?
F. Most people pursue those things because they are hungry for connection. And frankly, when My children try them — and find they don’t satisfy — they are often far more ready to turn to Me.
M. My head hurts. You’re not making any sense. I think I’ve had too much to drink.
F. Actuality, you haven’t had enough.
He gestured to the wooden cup He had placed in front of me when He first spoke. I had been so shocked at His arrival I hadn’t even noticed.
M. Um, is that what I think it is?
F. You guessed it. The Holy Grail. The New Covenant. The Last Supper. The Final Cup.
M. But… I thought that was for the pure of heart. The ascetic. The devoted. The ones who gave up all worldly pleasures out of love for you.
F. Not even close. To be sure, there is a place of honor in My Kingdom for such as those. But worthy as they are, they are not able to drink this cup.
M. I’m sorry, are you saying I am? You have got to be kidding me. Don’t you know where we are? What I did to get here? What I’ve been doing since I got here?
F. Yes. Practicing!
M. Practicing what? Abusing my body? Destroying my liver? Corroding my soul? Avoiding my pain?
F. Drinking a bitter cup.
I stare at Him in horror.
M. You don’t mean…
F. Yes. This the cup of suffering that Jesus Himself asked that I take away from Him in the Garden of Gethsemane. I offer it to you now.
M. But… why… how?
F. Because you have been foolish enough to drink from every cup this world has to offer. Pleasure. Power. Prestige. Purity. Pride. And yet wise enough to realize that none of them satisfy. In fact, they make you thirstier than ever.
M. But… this? How can I possibly…
F. Here. Let me show you.
He slides His hand over the cup, looking for all the world like a street hustler hiding a coin. When He is done, I am astonished to see an enormous bucket, and a tiny thimble.
F. The big one is mine. Just watch me, and do what I do.
As I watch in horror, the Lord of the Universe begins to chug a bucket of all the world’s agony, like a fraternity pledge guzzling beer on Spring Break. It’s like I can see all the cruelty and selfishness and evil that ever happened — including my own — pouring down His throat.
It is obvious that the pain must be indescribable. Yet He never stops. In fact, the gleam in His eyes glows ever brighter. Despite the unspeakable awfulness of the experience, I see a joy emerging from deep within Him.
Joy beyond anything I ever imagined.
Joy that is worth risking everything for.
Joy I would do anything to share.
If I have a Father who is willing to do that for me…
M. Wait for me!
Seized with a sudden resolve, I grab the tiny cup and hurl its contents down my throat.
Continued in Sex 207. Loving Life
We say that God is good
When we dine on comfort food
Much harder to confess
When we feel under duress
Update: Through a series of miracles, I am starting my dream job on July 25th as Director of Product at Quilt Data, after less than four weeks unemployed. Thanks for your prayers!
Yesterday I was laid off from the startup I’ve worked at for the last six years.
I am incredibly privileged to be a highly-educated tech worker in a growing industry, from a (formerly) two-income family. But it still hurts. Especially since we haven’t really recovered (financially or emotionally) from my prior layoff.
Which is why this post today from my friends at Pure Glory really spoke to me. Rather than reacting out of fear and dread, I choose to believe God is using this crisis to confront the doubt, deceptions, and division that have stolen my joy and crippled my impact.
Because the only thing truly standing in the way of my destiny is my own sin. So I rejoice that God is using these challenging circumstances to bless, purify and heal me in ways I could never imagine.
No matter how much it hurts.
by Apostle Gabriel Cross God is going deep to heal each one of us. God is dealing with the deep things in your spirit, the hidden things in your …The Healing Hand Of The Lord
Continued from Part 3
Here in my own private Eden
I stare into the eyes of a snake
Like unto the one that deceived Eve
Seeking the truth that could unmake Satan
But seeing only the Face of Death
I am no stranger to Death
Hell, Hades and I are so close he loans me his keys
This is different
I wanna be a loser
So Christ can be the winner
I wanna be the kind of saint
That everyone thinks a sinner
Lord help me to see