Radically Happy

Trauma takes me back to a context, and version of myself, where God seemed unavailable.

Question 1: WQDYWMTAY

“What Question You Want Me To Ask You?”

• How to revive a hardened heart

Identity Exchange Memo

I am… ganged up on.

I bare my teeth
Against the other stray dogs
Defending the rotting food
I had found in the alley

Maybe
If I act tough enough
Nobody will have the courage
To come any closer

Then a miracle occurs.

A giant Rottweiler
Appears next to me
With one bark
He scatters my enemies

I sigh.

I know what comes next

Reluctantly
I back off
Lie down
And whimper

Leaving the food to him
Hoping he’ll save me a scrap

He shakes his head.

And says:

“This will make you sick
Follow me
And you will never
Be hungry again!”

My stomach growls.

It goes against my religion
To not eat any available food
No matter how wretched

But
He fought for that food
It is His to dispose of

And
I can see from His sleek muscles
He never misses a meal

He must know
Where to find food

I crawl on my belly.

I lick His feet
And He licks my eyes

He heads off
In an unknown direction

And I…

Follow!

To be continued

Reflection

I feel…

• Humiliated
• Wretched
• Starving
• Malnourished
• Desperate
• Curious
• Afraid to hope

Scripture

They came out in full force with a multitude of horses and chariots. Their vast armies were as numerous as the grains of sand on the seashore. All these kings and their enormous armies joined forces and encamped at Lake Merom to fight against Israel.
Yahweh spoke to Joshua, saying, “Don’t be afraid of them; by this time tomorrow, I, Yahweh, will have them all lying slain before Israel. After the battle, cripple their horses and burn their chariots.”
Joshua launched his surprise attack, and all his army pounced on them at their camp at Lake Merom. Yahweh fought alongside Joshua’s fighting men to defeat them. Part of the Israelite army attacked and pursued the retreating forces as far north as the cities of Misrephoth Maim and Sidon. Another part of the Israelite army pursued the enemy as far east as the valley of Mizpah and crushed them all, leaving no survivors.
Afterward, Joshua crippled their horses and burned their chariots as Yahweh had commanded.‭‭

Joshua‬ ‭11‬:‭4‬-‭9‬ ‭TPT‬‬