Radically Happy

Now we see but a dim reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

1 Corinthians 13:12

MIC Check

• Today’s Most Important Challenge is … forgiving identifying with authority figures who [I feel] gaslight me

Immanuel Approach Memo

I am staring at a mirror.

The reflection is not me.
Or rather, it is NotMe.

It is my evil twin.
My negative.
A twisted, perverse condemning version of myself.

That is not how God sees me.
I am in Christ.
Right?

Right?

Right?!?!

Yet…
That is how others see me.
When I am triggered.
When I am an afraid.
When I cling to the Law to prove They are wrong.
To defend my Self.

They don’t see Christ.
Because I have hidden Him away in my heart.
So I can feel good about myself.

So I can tell myself They are the problem.
Because They are not like Me.

Right?

Wrong.

I stop.
I actually look at the mirror.

I see myself.
It really is me.

No parody.
No perversion.

Except.
The light.
The context.
Is different.

That’s why I hate Them.
Because I fear
And perhaps even know
That if I were there
Where they are
As I am now
Seeing what they see
Feeling what they feel
I would do the exact same thing.

So my brain
Helpfully
Naturally
Necessarily
Rejects Them
So I can continue to function
As My Self

I look closer
I look for Jesus

I can see Him reflected in my eyes
Calling me forward

I reach forward

The figure in the mirror
Isn’t a reflection
It’s a rotation

When I reach my right hand
He reaches his

We meet in the middle.
We make a connection.

I suddenly realize
I was afraid
Of the dark

Rather than trusting
In His light.

I see Jesus
In NotMe

Then he sees Jesus
In Me

Then We are good.