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A Few Words With The Old Man

We walk along the shore to our favorite fishing spot.  I walk on the sand. He walks on the water.

Though we left early, the sun is already beating down on us. I look forward to reaching the coolness of the cove.  Our tackle boxes are blessedly light.  We have brought no food; we will eat only what we can catch.

I lower my protesting body onto the ground, shifting to find a comfortable seat.  I am not as young as I used to be.  He — he seems just as old as he always did.

We cast our lures.  He leans back, stretch his arms, and adjusts his hat.  I pull up a blade of grass, and reflexively begin to chew.  I close my eyes.

I pop the clutch, ram the gearshift into place, tap the breaks.  Swearing, I yank the wheel  right to avoid the crash just up ahead.  I don’t even allow myself time to think about the fate of #51 and #132, though I’ve known them both for years.  I see an opening, and I lower my foot to race towards it.

The Malacci brothers are right on my tail, like a pair of yapping hounds scenting blood.  I ignore them, for now.  My eyes are fixed on the Hogg, two lengths ahead on the inside track. He’s good, I’ll give him that.  Veins like ice, the mind of a poker player, and more trophies than bricks in the brickyard.  He’s not going to make any stupid mistakes.

I grin. That’s my one advantage.  I know that the only way I can win is by taking gambles no sane driver would  consider.   I slow down almost imperceptibly.  The roar of the Malacci’s engines tells me they’ve taken my bait.  It is soon drowned out by the beating of my heart.  As if in slow motion, everything  finally clicks into place.

This is it, the moment I’ve been waiting for.  My chance to shine.  All the years of study, the endless hours on the track, the sleepless nights, the humiliating defeats, it all comes down to this one split second of action.

 I slam the pedal to the metal…

“How’s work?” he asks.

“Stressful,” I reply.

He nods.

She is the embodiment of beauty. And as deadly as she is beautiful.

I crouch motionless on my branch, watching her.  I’ve been at this for days, weeks, months.  Maybe years.  She must be aware of my presence, but gives no sign.  Or perhaps even no thought.  To her, I might just as well be another part of the jungle. 

My mouth goes dry. I tighten my hands on the vine net I have so carefully woven during my long vigils.  Tracking her movements.  Learning her patterns. Identifying her weaknesses. Measuring her strength.

This will not be easy.  If all I wanted was to kill her, I could have done that long ago with the spear  back in my cave.  It is easy — and tempting — to lob death from a distance.

But her beauty has captivated me.  It is the height of folly, I know — but I mean to capture her. I should have slain her the first day I saw her, when I first discovered a feline predator had invaded my hunting grounds.  There’s plenty of game to go around; but a man alone like me can ill afford to take chances.  One swipe of those knife-like claws and my life’s blood would fertilize the ground.

True, she has never shown an inclination to attack; though she would give  a warning growl if I prowled too close to her kill.  But this is my land. I have conquered it with my own blood and sweat, using tools shaped by my own two hands.  I will not spend my life skulking about in fear.  Yet neither do I dare harm this creature of the night who brings beauty and danger to my home.

I must master her, or die trying.

I measure the distance between us, and I pounce…

“And marriage?”

“Challenging.”

He grunts.

I pause to catch my breath, straightening my arms and legs to hold my back against the side of the ventilation shaft.  Getting into the building was child’s play, and even a 100-foot climb like this one has become routine.  The real danger lies ahead.

I close my eyes to review the mental map I had so laboriously constructed.  As I do, visions unbidden unfold behind my eyelids.  The explosions that started me on this perilous quest.  The shining city I hope to build.  The years I’ve spent toiling in the shadows, with countless more yet to come.

I shudder, remembering the close calls and failed missions that litter my past.  Then square my shoulders, glance upward, and resume my climb.   No time for fear. Or regrets.  I’ve got a job to do.

I finally reach the horizontal shaft that will take me to my destination. It is low, but wide.  I spider crawl for a dozen or so yards until I reach the dim light of a vent.  Glancing within, my breath is taken away by the beauty of the jewels I have to come to steal: a brilliant sapphire and a fiery ruby.  Woven about with lasers, booby traps, and alarms.  Timing is everything.  The slightest false step and all my hard work will be in vain.

I slowly lower myself on a winch to avoid activating the motion detectors.  I puff smoke into the room to reveal a maze of lasers, then contort my body into unnatural positions to reach the glass case containing my prize.  I hold my breath as I delicately trace a circle using my diamond cutter.  I pull on the suction cup, and the disc pops out easily.

Too easily, it turns out.  The case was filled with gas under pressure, which the chemical sensors in the room quickly sniff.  The darkness is shattered by wailing klaxons and blinding spotlights.  I shade my eyes and look around for the inevitable response.

From a series of concealed hatches in the roof pour a stream… of monkeys?  Howler monkeys gibbering, swinging, tossing fruit. And other things.

I sigh as I sink down the floor. Monkeys. Why did it have to be monkeys…

“The kids?”

“Tiring.”

He smiles.

“Yeah. I know, son. Trust me. I know.”

He turns and looks me in the eye.

“Don’t worry about it.  You’ll do fine.”

I leap upward, arms stretched to the extreme.  My fingertips barely graze the leather, but somehow catch hold.  I land hard, my legs already pumping.  I stagger, but keep my balance.  It is a long way to the end zone, but there’s nobody in front. The crowd goes wild.

I glance back.  The cornerback who leapt for the ball with me is just now scrambling to his feet.  Out of the corner of my eye I glimpse the Man who  passed me the ball.  It should be impossible at this distance, but I could swear I see him wink.

He has given me everything I need.  All I have to do now is run the race that is set before me.

I lift my eyes, and charge… 

“Thanks, Dad.”

He chuckles.

We fish.

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Falling Up

I am falling, falling.

It is neither hot not cold, I feel nothing. I see nothing.

Just falling, falling. Down, down, down…

I wake up. I am lying on my back in a field of wild grass. The smell of earth fills my nostrils. The air is warm, springlike. The sun is up, but not too hot. I am alone.

I stand up and dust myself off. Expectant, but not impatient.

He comes. I do not see Him, but I feel His presence drawing near.  I wait.

The Voice speaks. “Welcome, my son.”

My mouth quirks. “Hello. Father.”

The Voice smiles, though I still see nothing.  “Yes, I am your father.  And many other things, including your enemy.  But above all else, your father.”

I say nothing. There has been no question.  There is nothing to say.

The Voice grins.  “Come”, He says, and gestures without hands.

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Wrestling with God

Originally written 10:35 PM Friday, September 25th, 2009

Genesis 32 – Passage Lookup – New Century Version – BibleGateway.com

Joshua 5 – Passage Lookup – New King James Version – BibleGateway.com

[It is dark.  I am alone.  Everything I have and love has been sent ahead of me. In the morning, I will go Home.  I will face the Brother I betrayed, and the Father I abandoned. But for now, I am alone with my fears and my regrets. 

Or am I….]

Halt, who goes there? Are you for us or for our adversaries?

Neither, but I lead those who fight for He Who Is.

Who is what? Is for us, or is against us?

[One who looks like a man steps forward out of the shadows, into the starlit clearing.  Oddly, he shines as if standing in direct moonlight -- though there is no moon.  He is tall, well-muscled, moving with an easy grace and supreme confidence.  He is dressed like me in a flowing tunic, but somehow on him they look almost regal.]

And who are you, that I should answer your questions?

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Redemption: A Vision in Many Pieces

Redemption

A Vision in Many Pieces

Ernest Prabhakar

June 8th, 2001

“God, its too big for me to carry!”

“I know, my son.”

We sat at the bottom of my heart, facing the dark, concrete-like slab which was my need for love, my desire for human intimacy to the fill the void in my life and give me meaning. We had been doing some Spring Cleaning of my soul. It had been a while since I’d talked with God, and when I finally got around to it again I was surprised to discover lots of worries and fears weighing me down. The stuff on top was relatively easy – I handed over issues at work, my marriage, relations with family. But then we got down to things which had been undisturbed for years, maybe decades, and I realized I couldn’t move these myself.

“Will you carry it out?”

“Of course, but I will not do it alone. You must be a part of the process. It is yours, after all”



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Song: That’s Grace

Part 2 of the Guilt-Grace-Gratitude musical trilogy, from my 1996 meditations on The Grace Cycle.

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Song: From Guilt to Grace

The following song is a lyrical version of “Graphical Theology: The Grace Cycle“, part of my burst of artistic exploration in 1996. It was the first element of a trilogy on the Reformation themes of Guilt-Grace-Gratitude, but unlike the other two I never was happy enough with it to put it to music.

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If Only In My Youth

This is a another poem from my old site, written back in 2004 as I was beginning my current voyage of self-discovery. It starts out a bit whiny, but that’s where I was back then. :-)

The meter is loosely based on Edgar Allen Poe’s The Raven, and the plot is partly inspired by Till We Have Faces by C.S. Lewis.

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Song: No Longer Alone

This is a song I wrote back in 1996 in my post-college, pre-Apple days in Pasadena, California. It was for a girl I knew — heck, it fit pretty much all the girls I hung out with and/or was interested in during that decade.

I also sang it during a “Christian Connection” (online dating site) cruise back in 1999, just before I met Sandhya. By God’s grace I got to perform for the ship talent show. I said I was part of a Christian singles group with 80 women and 15 men — and I was having a *great* time! (as was reported almost daily on the ship’s TV :-).

“But being single wasn’t always fun and games — and that’s why I wrote this song.”
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Unforgiven: A Testimony in Three Persons

I’m in the process of cleaning up my “personal” site on DrErnie.com, and as part of that I’m moving some of my earlier writings to this site.

To start with, I present “Unforgiven”, a more-or-less accurate transcript of the first time God really dealt with me about anger…

Unforgiven

A testimony in three persons

The stage appears empty except for a single chair, center, facing right. A man sits on it backwards, facing left, hugging the back of the chair. His expression is grim. A single spotlight shines down on him. Another man walk out from right, and stands looking at him from the semi-darkness. The first man speaks, but remains facing left.

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Good News for Modern Nerds

The Nerd Bible (pdf) started with my sermon notes from 1985 at Park Street Church in Boston, where I was an MIT sophomore. Our college pastor Tony DeOrio used phrases like “integrating faith into our lives” and “love should differentiate Christians from the world.” Being intrinsically lazy — not to mention nerdly — I wrote those phrases down using calculus (#7 and #9).

When MIT made available a new-fangled Postscript printer capable of math symbols, I decided to learn the formatting language LaTeX to try it out. Just for the fun of it, I started with my sermon notes, then added other verses which used the different math functions available (#2, #3, #6 and #8). The Fourier transform (#6) is the only formula not recognizable by most first-year calculus students, but it makes such a beautiful mathematical/theological statement I feel it is worth the confusion it causes.

In the fall of 1986, I was studying cultural contextualization in the “Perspectives on the World Christian Movement” missions class. I realized my equations formed something pretty close to a gospel outline in math. To fill in the holes, I came up with several theological and Christological statements (#1, #4,and #5). “Lamb’ de God” probably represents the pinnacle of my efforts at combining bad puns and good theology.

The final touch (#10) was based on a challenge my lab partner Scott Beasley issued after seeing my first draft. “Yeah, but could you ever represent the Song of Solomon in calculus?” You be the judge.

Update: Also available as a T-shirt.

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This is my blog…

This is my blog on Wordle.

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Samuel Jacobson, Seeker of Knowledge – Part 2

[Today's story, the conclusion to the Scribe of Nicodemus, is actually the one I originally intended to write (since I write more-or-less stream of consciousness, it is easy to get sidetracked :-). The impetus for this project was the fact that Jesus seemed to expect Nicodemus to understand what he said in John 3. I found myself wondering what kind of response Jesus was looking for, and whether Nicodemus -- or anyone! -- could have handled it better. I thought about writing myself into the encounter with Jesus, but I wanted a character who hadn't already studied this passage a dozen or more times. On the other hand, there had to be some plausible way for the character to improve on Nicodemus. This led me to the idea of Nicodemus' personal secretary: bright, educated, young, and in a position to benefit from Nicodemus' example. I chose the name Samuel because, frankly, it was one of the few Jewish names I could spell! Similarly, I mentioned Gamaliel at the beginning simply to burnish Samuel's resume. Their climactic encounter at the end of Part I -- and the significance of his namesake -- caught me completely by surprise. As will today's narrative, because as of right now I have no idea how Samuel will react when he meets Jesus...]

Prologue, Redux

I wait in the darkness, shivering — not from the cold. Most would call what I’m doing disloyal; some would call it blasphemy. I can’t help it; I have to know. I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I can barely think. My familiar world — everything I’ve ever believed in — is hanging by a thread. I’m terrified that the thread might snap; yet, a part of me is hoping that it will. That just maybe there’s something bigger, brighter, and more beautiful awaiting at the bottom of this seemingly dark chasm I’m dangling over.

But just when I’m ready to give up hope, He comes…
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Samuel Jacobson, Scribe of Nicodemus – Part 1

[The following is a work of fiction. Though obviously based on the events of John 3, it is not in any way meant to be a theological study or doctrinal statement. Rather, it is what C.S. Lewis might (charitably) call "sanctified imagination", to probe and challenge my understanding of Jesus -- and perhaps yours.]

Prologue

I wait in the darkness, shivering — not from the cold. Most would call what I’m doing disloyal; some would call it blasphemy. I can’t help it; I have to know. I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I can barely think. My familiar world — everything I’ve ever believed in — is hanging by a thread. I’m terrified that the thread might snap; yet, a part of me is hoping that it will. That just maybe there’s something bigger, brighter, and more beautiful awaiting at the bottom of this seemingly dark chasm I’m dangling over.

But the real question that rings through my head is: will He come?

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O Love That Will Not Let Me Go

Along with seven other “young” men [I'm the oldest :-], I am beginning a new Leadership Development Team at Kingsway Community Church. Among other assignments, we were asked to pick one area we wanted to grow in (and be accountable for). For me, I think the biggest challenge is my need/desire to “perform.” The antidote to that, I believe, is learning to receive God’s love like a little child. Which made me think of this hymn…

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The Kingdom of Love, Take 1

This last weekend, along with over a dozen members of our church, I had the privilege of attending Salt & Light’s
North American Leaders’ Conference (WEST) at The King’s Community Church in Langley, British Columbia (just outside Vancouver). We had the immense privilege of hearing from Bob Mumford, who actually founded our church many years ago. He is a deeply insightful speaker — and has been to hell and back since then — so it was a deep privilege to have him share directly from his heart.

In trying to summarize what he taught us over four days, I found myself returning to a phrase I’d started humming a few months ago “I want to live (3X) in the Kingdom of Love.” One thing led to another, and my summary turned into a song. To be honest, it is probably too terse and disjointed to work as either a summary or a hymn, but it was nonetheless useful as a way to help me digest the many things he taught. Perhaps someday I can refine it into something more useful.

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Stoned, Part II: Un-Stoned

Continued from “Three Stones“…

[I open my eyes. I am lying with my head on Jesus lap. I am a child, perhaps a tween. We are in a garden -- beneath the cross. It is early morning, but already hot. A light mist blows from somewhere, cooling us. It is very peaceful and secure.  I could lie here forever with my Jesus.]

Good morning, Ernie.

Good morning, Jesus.

How are you feeling?

With you, I am at peace. I feel secure, loved. Dead to all the obligations of this world. Nothing else matters when I’m with you, since if anything did matter you would tell me.

But the part of you that is not with me?

If I had to pick a word, I’d say “grieved.” For him and the anger that drove him to atheism. For her, and the fear that weighs her down. For myself, and the pride and insecurity that keep me out of your kingdom.

Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.

Yes, Lord, and I thank you for that comfort. [pause to soak it in]

Ernie?

Yes, Lord?

What do you want from me?

Huh. The same question I asked Sandhya last night. The cliché answer — at some level the real answer — is that I want your kingdom to come; in me, through me, around me. But obviously there’s more to it than that.

First of all, I want to be whole, or perhaps free. I feel like I’ve been wearing this skin of insecurity and pride all my life — certainly since 5th grade — and it is starting to chafe. I want out. I want to be naked and unashamed before You. I don’t want to “act out” in domineering ways, but I don’t even want to “act in”– do the right things for the wrong reason. I want to want the right things, if that makes sense.

More or less. Go on.

Second, I want to love my wife with a redeeming, transforming love.  …So, I finally think I have enough of an understanding to pray. But am I praying the right way? Am I loving her the right way? Should I do more? Less?

And of course there’s the larger problem of my near-inability to pray, except through contrived means like this. Which would probably be my third request. I don’t really care how, but I want to accomplish those things (or rather, see you accomplish those) which can only be accomplished through prayer, versus those that can be achieved through my efforts. I want my reach to exceed my grasp, rather than turning inward toward only that which I [think I] can control.

Very good, Ernie.

Thank you.

Anything else?

Not really. I mean, sure, there’s lots of things I want. Alan’s salvation, success at work, happiness etc.  But, those seem subsidiary to these.  In fact, these three are probably all interrelated, and may even reflect a deeper need I haven’t articulated.

So, ultimately, I guess I want what you want for me — or at least I want to want that!

Well said. But how badly do you want that?

Bad enough to die. Slay me with your love, Lord Jesus, that I may live for you.

[Jesus looks at me for a long moment. He lifts his arms, and plucks a red ruby from his right hand, and a green emerald from his left. They are somewhat small -- perhaps a centimeter across -- but exquisite.]

These are your re-birth stones, Ernie. Part of the new name I give you, that is known to nobody but you. Forged in the heat of the cross, out of the fuel of your sin.

What do I do, wear them?

Ingest them, Ernie. They are like vitamins circulating in your body, to counteract the deficiency diseases of Insecurity and Pride. The red one, to treat insecurity, is “My Beloved.” It is made of Hope, Love, and Faith.  Hope that you will accomplish great things in the world in my name — not yours. Love, because of the undying love I have for you. And Faith — faith that everything will work out because I am in control.

[I take, and drink the red one.  It is like my first communion wine: potent and warming.]

The second is “My Child.” You are still a child, Ernie. You know in part, you understand in part, you desire in part. You will always be a child, Ernie. This gem/pill is made of Humility, Innocence, and Peace. Let go, Ernie. Let it all go, that you might inherit everything I long to give you.

[I eat the second. It is like an entire field of wheat, bursting with the earth's bounty.]

And what of the third stone, my Lord? The pebble of Self?

There is no gem for that, my beloved child.  There is only my Spirit. Receive him now.

[He breathes upon me.]

Prayer

Father, I receive your holy Spirit. I accept my identity as your beloved, and as your child. Forgive me for trying to build an altar to myself, out of insecurity and pride. Teach me to eat the real food of you, and drink your real drink.  That I may hunger and thirst no more. I ask this in Jesus name, Amen.

2 Corinthians 3:12-18 (The Message)

The Message (MSG)

Copyright © 1993, 1994, 1995, 1996, 2000, 2001, 2002 by Eugene H. Peterson

12-15With that kind of hope to excite us, nothing holds us back. Unlike Moses, we have nothing to hide. Everything is out in the open with us. He wore a veil so the children of Israel wouldn’t notice that the glory was fading away—and they didn’t notice. They didn’t notice it then and they don’t notice it now, don’t notice that there’s nothing left behind that veil. Even today when the proclamations of that old, bankrupt government are read out, they can’t see through it. Only Christ can get rid of the veil so they can see for themselves that there’s nothing there.

16-18Whenever, though, they turn to face God as Moses did, God removes the veil and there they are—face-to-face! They suddenly recognize that God is a living, personal presence, not a piece of chiseled stone. And when God is personally present, a living Spirit, that old, constricting legislation is recognized as obsolete. We’re free of it! All of us! Nothing between us and God, our faces shining with the brightness of his face. And so we are transfigured much like the Messiah, our lives gradually becoming brighter and more beautiful as God enters our lives and we become like him.

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Stoned, Part I: Three Stones

5:30 AM, Sunday, March 11th, 2007

I am walking down a street of some kind, carrying  three stones I, um, excreted earlier. Semi-round, they are roughly the size of a quarter, nickel, and dime, respectively. Clean now, I juggle them in my hand, relieved to have them out, but not quite sure what to do with them.

It is night, but I am approaching a streetlight where i can finally examine them. They all have a fine texture, almost like a random-dot stereogram. More than almost — if I stare at each of them I can make out a word. Respectively, I see:

  1. Insecurity
  2. Pride
  3. Self

It is a bit surprising to see “Self” as the smallest pebble, but there you have it. Having named them, I understand why it was important to excrete them — so I could get them out into the open and deal with them. But, how to deal with them?

  • Jesus?
  • Hi Ernie.
  • What do you want from me?
  • Your sin.

Wordlessly, I hand him the three stones. I watch.
He takes the first stone, Insecurity, in his right hand. He cradles it in the spike-hole at the base of his palm. He does the same with Pride on his left, then hands Self back to me. I start to have an awful premonition about what will happen next.

Oh God, no. Not again.

Where the streetlight was — or perhaps it was the streetlight — stands a lone cross. It is now late afternoon, but the sky is filled with patches of red-tinged clouds. In the ruddy light, Jesus ascends a tiny platform at the base of the cross; like the kind used for hangings in the Old West.
On the platform are a hammer and three nails. And nobody besides me to use them.

  • Jesus, no. Please let this cup pass from me.
  • As it is written, so must it be.
  • How can I do this to you?
  • You have already done this to me, Ernie. Now you must own up to your sin.
  • Father, is there no other way?

No, Ernie. For this is how it has always been, since the dawn of creation. A price must be paid.

Swallowing hard, I mount the steps to stand beside my savior. To execute him. There are steps on either side, so I can reach the arms of the cross. Jesus stands on a wooden block.

I pick up the hammer, which is named Confession. I realize with a start that this is the hammer I thought I needed to forge — and failed to — back in August 2005. I realize the first two nails are Truth and Love, part of the same set I was given at that time. But what is the third? I look closer, and I see it has the name Spirit.

Jesus is waiting. I pick up the Hammer of Confession and the nail of Love. The stone of Insecurity has expanded, like a sponge in water, to fill the hole in Jesus palm. It is red like blood, so it is an easy target. Gritting my teeth, I hammer my Lord to a cross.

I hope the pre-drilled hole will make it easier on him, but that’s only half true. He does not cry out, but wracking shudders flow through his body with every blow. I hear wailing sobs — but those are mine, not his.

The dark deed done, I pick up a nail of Truth, and hammer it into Pride on the other hand. This expanded stone glows green through his skin; sickly, like kryptonite.

I step back to ‘admire’ my handiwork. Out of insecurity and pride, using truth and love as weapons, I have crucified my Lord. Again.

And I’m not even finished. Jesus is in pain, but not mortally so. There is one more nail, and one more stone.

  • Lord, have mercy on me, a fool.

I kneel at the foot of the cross. Jesus painfully lifts himself on Truth and Love so I can slide the block away. Beneath is the hole on the well-used cross, which aligns easily with the holes on his feet. I look at the stone of Self, which is a light (if dappled) grey, easily mistaken for white. It is soft, squishy even, like dry gum. I stick it onto the point of Spirit, my final nail.

I look one last time into the eyes of my Saviour, suspended above me. To my amazement, there is no condemnation; a fierce joy — even gratitude! — blazes through the immense pain he is suffering. Perversely, this spawns a new round of weeping in me, and I bathe his feet with my tears.

Picking up Confession, I begin to hammer Spirit and Self into Jesus. I expect it to be even easier than the first two, where the nails sliced through the sponge-like substance of the assimilated stones. But Self and Jesus do not mix easily. For the first time, I hear him cry out; each touch of Self is like acid to his flesh. Self liquefies, covering, encasing, and quenching Spirit. Sparks fly, and a deadly blackness seeps into his feet..

  • O my Lord, what have I done to thee?
  • How long and how oft have I tainted thee with me?

I cannot do it. It is not simply a matter of will, but strength itself has failed me. It is then I feel my Father’s arms around me, cradling me in his lap, guiding my arms with his strength.

Complete the work, Ernie. Finish it, for only then can you both be free.

Nodding, I tighten my grip upon the hammer, and with the Father’s strength behind me the Spirit drives Self not merely into Jesus, but all the way through into the cross, in one blinding collision of darkness and light. The very air seems to scream. I collapse into my Father’s arms. My last thought as consciousness ebbs is, “At least I didn’t need to pierce his heart” — as blood like water pours out of his side, to fall refreshingly on my face.

I sleep.

I wake up cradled in the arms of Jesus, newly risen (as always :-). He gives me a hug, and I hold him close for along time.

To be continued….

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Re-Deemed by Ernest N. Prabhakar

The following poem is a sequel to Trappist.

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Trappist by Ernest N. Prabhakar

The following poem was inspired by Kenneth, but it isn’t about him. It is about me.

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FLOD: The Fountain of Love’s Overflowing Dominion

The following was partly inspired by a dream I had, sort of a cross between Cars and the Amazing Race, where I pulled into a gas station whose pump handle was like a can opener (the old kind that punched holes instead of removing the top). I sensed that God wanted to pump something directly into my heart, not merely the “gas tank” of my head. More, he wanted to force it in under pressure, so that when I “leak” (as I always do :-), it actually becomes a blessing, not a loss.
Though, I must admit it was also, indirectly, inspired by this.

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